Since I was a little girl, I knew I was different. The way I saw the world was much different than anyone, and the closest person to me as a young girl was my sister. I would describe some of my experiences to her, and when she did not completely grasp them, I knew for certain I was very different indeed, if my own kin was not in line with those types of experiences.

I don’t want to elaborate too much but have harboured these feelings secretly much of my life because anytime I speak it, I freak someone out. But I have come to accept these things and in the recent years have been trying to embrace them and not let them take me over.

I am a Natural Empath. I have very intense intuitive feelings. I have bouts of sleep paralysis in which the dreams relate to one another under a common feeling. I have even dreamed things that have come to pass. I have intense nightmares and have learned what triggers them. I have envisioned things during my waking life that have come to pass, and I have intense premonitions before I fall asleep at night – pretty much every single night. I instinctively know who I can trust, and who is questionable. I have gone through my life feeling as if I can see right inside of people, and understand them on a very deep level. I have experienced paranormal activity and energy [but do not seek to ever experience that again, for the record - it is no longer something of particular interest though it did intrigue me upon experiencing it]. When people come into my life unexpectedly, I know there is an ultimate significance. I have grown to not be as fearful of these experiences as I once was….. I have told a select few people about these experiences, my ex being witness to several of them, and he asked me kindly to not discuss my dreams with him anymore, so I did eventually stop. I won’t get into all the significance I think dreams have in our lives but I dont necessarily think its as cut and dry as reading a ‘dream book’ for explanations.. I think it goes much deeper than that! [That could potentially lead me into a thousand directions about the soul etc so I won't go there in this blog post, hah.]

Do I think I’m a psychic? NO. Not at all. I just think I am very in tune with my surroundings and with the way I experience humanity, emotion, and spirituality.

I am writing about this tonight because I just had a very powerful empathetic episode, and have been in deep reflection since. I take in the pain of others somehow and let it burden me. This seems silly to anyone who has never experienced something of this nature, but it is a very profound and even more difficult to explain. Sometimes I take on the pain of multiple individuals and don’t even take into consideration why I’m in a less than desirable mood on certain occasions.

Right now I have been harbouring the pain of three specific individuals, and now a fourth – my grandmother, who has been popping up more often in my dreams over the past year, and many of my dreams have taken place at her home/yard/etc.

When I was in her home over the Holidays I knew there was something she wasn’t telling us about her sickness. I could sense it with all of my being. I called my sister and told her about my belief that there is something more to her illness than what she is telling us. So I went into my grandmother’s room and when I sat on her bed I was overwhelmed with a notion that something was very wrong. I began to question her calmly and persistently, taking care to engage her kindly and without suggesting any worry on my part. Sure enough when everyone left the room, she told me some things that she has been hiding for several years. I really hope she will go back to the doctor. The next day,  she told us all that she was feeling better but I am certain she was trying to ease our worry. She has been in my dreams twice this week, lastnight particularly, she was in the fetal position curled up like a baby and very fragile looking, frail, sickly. It was disturbing to be quite honest.

This seriously is only a very small tip of an enourmous iceburg of experiences, and I have decided to start blogging some of my visions, dreams, and other experiences – without getting too heavy…. just sharing, mostly. I love sharing things – even if I appear to be completely insane. Think what you will. Had I not mentioned these things and you met me on the street you would have no idea, even though sometimes it is insanely overwhelming.

If you are someone I know [have met physically] and you would like to test me on this, I would be happy to let you know things I’ve picked up from your energy…… Because its a given that if we’ve been in contact, I’ve definitely picked up on your energy. Just ask – if I’m wrong, I’m wrong, but I’ll be glad to let you in on what my senses say about you. =)

I do try to pick up on the energy of people I meet online but it is much more difficult and less natural, although photographs of a person do help. Just to clarify – I’m not saying send me a pic and I’ll tell you something about yourself, I’m just saying if we have interacted and exchanged energy, most likely I have already assessed some things about you, even if its a web-based friendship that we have formed.